A Pog is born.....

Tonight, i want to delve into the animalistic side of my submission. Hopefully this helps you understand me a bit better

When i was under Sir Iain and Sir Scott, i had these playful tendencies and pounced on them all the time.  It was then that they told me i had pup tendencies.   They named me Bowser. The name came from the villain in the Mario Brothers...... he was big and horny!!!!   (My family has a sick sense of humor and i love it)    i didn’t have a lot of training, and when i was decollared... the pup in me did not come out for a very long time.

At Master Chucks Feet

Another time at Master Chucks feet

During this time, i did a lot of thinking....and looked up at the night sky.  i instantly recognized Orion constellation.  I then saw Canis Major....the dog.  I fantasized that i would be in a relationship in which my Dom was Orion the hunter and i was his dog.  This fit my ideal Dom because a hunter tends to be masculine, strong physic, and strong mind....something that i desired.  As i pondered the constellations, i also realized that Orion was the first constellations that i ever found and consistently find.  Even to this day when i see Orion, i pause and take a deep, calming breath.

Fast-forward a few years with my times with Master Chuck and former Sir Iain.  When i spend time with them, they always turn my crank, from the leathers they wore, to the smells they produced, an even the Speedos they wore (yeah, you can blame me for the family fascination with Speedos).  Very soon, i started to Snort when i saw, heard, or smelled something that i found hot or erotic.  WALA, a pig is born.

Fast-forward even more to last night.  i was talking to Master Chuck online.  i was in a good mood.  Master Chuck and i were ‘flirting’ when a change started to happen.  As he talked more, i went from dog to pig in an instant.  Master Chuck stated that he thought i was more a pog then a dog.   A pog is a term He uses to describe a pig/dog combination...and in my case i can go back and forth easily.  However, this was not the only change that happened. 

As we talked further, i felt my mind go more animalistic and more submissive. To the point, my mind was all animal.  i felt as if i was “born” in a way, and in the pit of my stomach, i new something was right, but also anxious because IT did not know what to do.  The one thing IT did not want to do was to think.  IT was chatting with Master Chuck some more, and got its thoughts down quickly.  IT actually said to Master Chuck, that Sir could do anything to IT.  Sir wrote “ANYTHING??”  It was at this time that the duel nature of IT and boy matt co existed. IT wanted to say yes, boy matt needed to quantify this by stating that he trusted Sir to never harm IT.  Hurt,  yes... but never harm.  IT also wanted to call Sir ...Master.  However, the boy matt brain interjected and remembered Sir would never collar me.  The boy matt side started to take over.  After a few hours, IT was gone.

FUCK, i had a major moment.   and was pondering it for a wile. i felt so happy at that moment.  But not sure what will happen next or when IT will come out.

That moment, i learned something about myself.... i’m really a pog and looking forward to finding out more. about that.

On the way home from work tonight i was thinking about how i was going to write this, and realized that the Orion connection to all of this.  You see, it is probable that i may find my Hunter Orion since i am a pog, but there is also another dog or pog in my future. So the journey there is going to be very interesting.

Orion and his Dogs

Leather in 2012

This entry is not going to be a long on, just that i will be going to Eastern Canada Leather Sir/boy contest in Toronto with events Feb 17-19^th.

The website for more information is:

http://www.leathersircanada.com/

Hope to see you there!!!

Your Fucking Ugly too SIR!!!!!

i have to laugh at this now.  i know you may be shocked to hear that i have said this not only to my former Sirs but as well as to Master Chuck!  i can hear the audible gasp coming threw the Internet right now as you speak!!

what you don’t know is that it is actually an order that is given to me (and a few others) that if Master Chuck or others in the family called me “your ugly” i am to respond right back with "Your Fucking Ugly too...... Sir!" 

there is a method to Master Chucks madness ... *EG*

i always known it was to accept who i am , as well as knowing that i was good looking.  You see, as of right now, i call  myself Bigfootcub on various sights.  There is NOTHING about me that is small.... big belie, big head, very tall, big coc..... feet. :D

Being 500 lbs, 6’4, size 16-18 feet....there is nothing normal about me physically.  And for that reason, i felt really ugly.  What compounds it even more is that i stress eat...a lot!!  One point in my depression, i went to McDonalds and ordered 2 Supersized Big Mac meals. When i got home, i ate all of it..... and still felt hungry.

Tonight, something happened!!

i saw in the mirror someone good looking. And in a bit of a shock, realized it was me.... and for the first time, i never looked away... i kept looking....staring.  i noticed how my faced looked when i smiled. i notice the shape of my face, and that i was loosing weight in my face.  i was utterly amazed, and in the moment, i set a goal for myself.  This is a very personal goal for me, i am not even going to tell Master Chuck about this goal.  i want to do this for myself, and no one else.

i can’t wait till the next family member who tells me i am ugly.... EG

‘Tis the season!!!!

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TLP part 2....ish

Wow, has it really been three months since TLP? Dang, i have been busy with work, and now have a little breathing space right before the Christmas Season starts..... yeah, i do work retail!!

The one thing i wanted to write about for the TLP weekend was my workshop.  i was doing a Bootblacking and Spirituality workshop that i have done several times before.  However there was something not quite right.

You see, the first couple times i did this workshop, not only was i teaching people about what and why i do, i was also healing at the same time.  i was still bitter about the first relationship, and working hard to rebuild those relationships.  The first time i did the workshop, i had everyone in tears because of how i was able to relate my feeling into words and project that into the small audience.

The workshop at TLP was something different.

It started out the same, though i was a bit frantic because i left a few things at the Condo.

When we got there, i got into position before the classes started (at Sirs boots resting and focusing)

When the class started, i went to describe the class to another smallish class.... yet it didn’t feel right.

We talked about Master Chucks new boots, and how sometimes.... leathers take a journey to get to where they need to be, and Master Chuck told everyone about how He received his new boots from his new boy. The one thing that felt right, was that when i worked on the boots, and licked the boots was that i was concentrating on the energy of the boots as well as Sir.  This is one of the very few things we have done publicly, and i am great full for that privilege.

Once i answered everyone’s questions, and was done.  i felt empty inside.  The class dynamics was ‘off’ for me, and i couldn’t put my finger on it.

Master Chuck and i talked about it the following week .  We agreed that i would never do that workshop again.  IT needed to change, and Sir challenged me to see how i can transform it, because the need i got from doing the workshop is no longer there.

so left with the question.... How do i transform this workshop to give the same information.... yet fullfil the needs that i have?????

At Master Chuck's boots before TLP