Dear Leather Daddy Santa.....

Dear Leather Daddy Santa...

   i have been a very good boy this year!!!! And a good boy is always clean, inside and out....

 i hope you have seen it this past year. This boy would like to get a pair of Leather Search Gloves

i also know that the Dominants that i know like to partake in CBT, so this boy needs to stretch its balls more. this one would like to get some Oxballs Stretchers.

For pog, IT knows it would love to have as a chew toy, a stuffed pig....

Leather Daddy Santa, if i have been a really good boy.....boy would like to get a custom pair of these...

Leather Daddy Santa, i will admit that this one has not always been good.... and will accept any punishment You administer...... but Santa, i do have one request..... if allowed.... could i have some time at Master Chuck's booted feet please??????

Respectfully,

   boy/pog matt

pog tried to come out today!

i was on my way to a Big and Tall shop to pick up an order i had placed.  When i got there, i saw some Coleman workboots.  They actually had them my size, and i whimpered softly because i didn’t have time to try them on, or even  had the money if they did.

i left the store, and at a stoplight, the image and the smell of Master Chucks work boots came into my head.  i was snorting very loud and jerking my head, it was obvious that pog was trying to come out.  Unfortunately i was not in a safe place physically to allow it to happen... so forced myself to get back to reality. To my knowledge, this is the fastest pog tried to come out. i had a big smile as i drove back to work! 

A Pog is born.....

Tonight, i want to delve into the animalistic side of my submission. Hopefully this helps you understand me a bit better

When i was under Sir Iain and Sir Scott, i had these playful tendencies and pounced on them all the time.  It was then that they told me i had pup tendencies.   They named me Bowser. The name came from the villain in the Mario Brothers...... he was big and horny!!!!   (My family has a sick sense of humor and i love it)    i didn’t have a lot of training, and when i was decollared... the pup in me did not come out for a very long time.

At Master Chucks Feet

Another time at Master Chucks feet

During this time, i did a lot of thinking....and looked up at the night sky.  i instantly recognized Orion constellation.  I then saw Canis Major....the dog.  I fantasized that i would be in a relationship in which my Dom was Orion the hunter and i was his dog.  This fit my ideal Dom because a hunter tends to be masculine, strong physic, and strong mind....something that i desired.  As i pondered the constellations, i also realized that Orion was the first constellations that i ever found and consistently find.  Even to this day when i see Orion, i pause and take a deep, calming breath.

Fast-forward a few years with my times with Master Chuck and former Sir Iain.  When i spend time with them, they always turn my crank, from the leathers they wore, to the smells they produced, an even the Speedos they wore (yeah, you can blame me for the family fascination with Speedos).  Very soon, i started to Snort when i saw, heard, or smelled something that i found hot or erotic.  WALA, a pig is born.

Fast-forward even more to last night.  i was talking to Master Chuck online.  i was in a good mood.  Master Chuck and i were ‘flirting’ when a change started to happen.  As he talked more, i went from dog to pig in an instant.  Master Chuck stated that he thought i was more a pog then a dog.   A pog is a term He uses to describe a pig/dog combination...and in my case i can go back and forth easily.  However, this was not the only change that happened. 

As we talked further, i felt my mind go more animalistic and more submissive. To the point, my mind was all animal.  i felt as if i was “born” in a way, and in the pit of my stomach, i new something was right, but also anxious because IT did not know what to do.  The one thing IT did not want to do was to think.  IT was chatting with Master Chuck some more, and got its thoughts down quickly.  IT actually said to Master Chuck, that Sir could do anything to IT.  Sir wrote “ANYTHING??”  It was at this time that the duel nature of IT and boy matt co existed. IT wanted to say yes, boy matt needed to quantify this by stating that he trusted Sir to never harm IT.  Hurt,  yes... but never harm.  IT also wanted to call Sir ...Master.  However, the boy matt brain interjected and remembered Sir would never collar me.  The boy matt side started to take over.  After a few hours, IT was gone.

FUCK, i had a major moment.   and was pondering it for a wile. i felt so happy at that moment.  But not sure what will happen next or when IT will come out.

That moment, i learned something about myself.... i’m really a pog and looking forward to finding out more. about that.

On the way home from work tonight i was thinking about how i was going to write this, and realized that the Orion connection to all of this.  You see, it is probable that i may find my Hunter Orion since i am a pog, but there is also another dog or pog in my future. So the journey there is going to be very interesting.

Orion and his Dogs

Leather in 2012

This entry is not going to be a long on, just that i will be going to Eastern Canada Leather Sir/boy contest in Toronto with events Feb 17-19^th.

The website for more information is:

http://www.leathersircanada.com/

Hope to see you there!!!

Your Fucking Ugly too SIR!!!!!

i have to laugh at this now.  i know you may be shocked to hear that i have said this not only to my former Sirs but as well as to Master Chuck!  i can hear the audible gasp coming threw the Internet right now as you speak!!

what you don’t know is that it is actually an order that is given to me (and a few others) that if Master Chuck or others in the family called me “your ugly” i am to respond right back with "Your Fucking Ugly too...... Sir!" 

there is a method to Master Chucks madness ... *EG*

i always known it was to accept who i am , as well as knowing that i was good looking.  You see, as of right now, i call  myself Bigfootcub on various sights.  There is NOTHING about me that is small.... big belie, big head, very tall, big coc..... feet. :D

Being 500 lbs, 6’4, size 16-18 feet....there is nothing normal about me physically.  And for that reason, i felt really ugly.  What compounds it even more is that i stress eat...a lot!!  One point in my depression, i went to McDonalds and ordered 2 Supersized Big Mac meals. When i got home, i ate all of it..... and still felt hungry.

Tonight, something happened!!

i saw in the mirror someone good looking. And in a bit of a shock, realized it was me.... and for the first time, i never looked away... i kept looking....staring.  i noticed how my faced looked when i smiled. i notice the shape of my face, and that i was loosing weight in my face.  i was utterly amazed, and in the moment, i set a goal for myself.  This is a very personal goal for me, i am not even going to tell Master Chuck about this goal.  i want to do this for myself, and no one else.

i can’t wait till the next family member who tells me i am ugly.... EG

‘Tis the season!!!!

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TLP part 2....ish

Wow, has it really been three months since TLP? Dang, i have been busy with work, and now have a little breathing space right before the Christmas Season starts..... yeah, i do work retail!!

The one thing i wanted to write about for the TLP weekend was my workshop.  i was doing a Bootblacking and Spirituality workshop that i have done several times before.  However there was something not quite right.

You see, the first couple times i did this workshop, not only was i teaching people about what and why i do, i was also healing at the same time.  i was still bitter about the first relationship, and working hard to rebuild those relationships.  The first time i did the workshop, i had everyone in tears because of how i was able to relate my feeling into words and project that into the small audience.

The workshop at TLP was something different.

It started out the same, though i was a bit frantic because i left a few things at the Condo.

When we got there, i got into position before the classes started (at Sirs boots resting and focusing)

When the class started, i went to describe the class to another smallish class.... yet it didn’t feel right.

We talked about Master Chucks new boots, and how sometimes.... leathers take a journey to get to where they need to be, and Master Chuck told everyone about how He received his new boots from his new boy. The one thing that felt right, was that when i worked on the boots, and licked the boots was that i was concentrating on the energy of the boots as well as Sir.  This is one of the very few things we have done publicly, and i am great full for that privilege.

Once i answered everyone’s questions, and was done.  i felt empty inside.  The class dynamics was ‘off’ for me, and i couldn’t put my finger on it.

Master Chuck and i talked about it the following week .  We agreed that i would never do that workshop again.  IT needed to change, and Sir challenged me to see how i can transform it, because the need i got from doing the workshop is no longer there.

so left with the question.... How do i transform this workshop to give the same information.... yet fullfil the needs that i have?????

At Master Chuck's boots before TLP

Unexpected Affection

Surprising me is very hard to do, especially due to the way i grew up.  my mind is very logical and i usually can guess things.  i also have this uncanny knack of finding things out without really knowing it.

When i am surprised, it usually shocks me to the core, and it means a lot to me.

An example of this was when i turned 30.  i was not looking forward to it and i felt like i had not accomplished anything in my life, i had not achieved a primary relationship, and i was in a job that i hated.  

However my parents surprised me.  They had invited my extended bio family to my parent's house, and had a surprise birthday party for me! i could not believe that  they were there for me, and i had a good time. 

i also planned to see Sir Scott and Sir Iain on my birthday weekend.  Unfortunately, i was told Sir Iain was going to be away for a business trip that weekend.  Needless to say i was bummed, but happy i could get to Canada.  So i arrived on Friday and spent time with Sir Scott.  The next day around noon, we went to Northbound Leather.  As i was sitting down, Sir Scott told me to close my eyes.  i did and felt someone putting a cap on my head.  When i opened them, there was Sir Iain beaming.  Not only that, i was given my first piece of Earned Leather....a boy cap.  

After that, we went to O’Grady's, where i was  given my next birthday present - the start of my bootblack kit and lessons by black, boy joe, boy alex, cub, and BooBoo!!!! Ever since then, i learned to be a bootblack and a DAMN good one!!!!

At the end of my recent trip, someone i really respect and i find very hot said that i give good head.  i did a double take.  This person and i rarely play, and when we do, i feel he is doing it just to please me, and not out of his pleasure.  So this shocked me.  A few hours later, he kissed me.  Not just a peck on the cheek, not a quick peck on the lips.....but full on several minute French kiss.  WHIMPER.  In the span of two hours,  my world was rocked by these two instances. Not only was i was surprised, but was given validation of how he cares about me....and i still am blushing over this.

i do my best to let surprises happen, but if you truly surprise me, you make my day and rock my world!!!!

Toronto Leather Pride pt 1

i had a great time this past weekend.  Toronto used to have Church Street Fetish Fair in August, and Mr. Leather Toronto in November.  They now combined it for the TLP weekend.  There was some issues started with the BIA... but i believed everyone learned from it.

i arrived weds night. and a good time talking to Master Scott slave Kalen (btw he may be called a husky pup...but he really is a squirrel).  But it was late and went to bed.

Thursday, i woke up later and late in the afternoon, i headed Downtown to have dinner with a friend.  We went to have sushi, and had some new experiences.  i never had roe before (which tasted like living salt granules), had eel for the first time (wasn’t to thrilled on that), and salmon Dragon Rolls (YUM!!!!!!) and for the first time i was able to eat a whole meal with chopsticks.  We then spent some time together walking around and talking.

i headed to the tube, and got to Kipling and Master Scott picked me up and went to the Eagle for pup night and boot night.

At the Eagle, a guy i known from the last visit was hitting on me hard, and for the night i was serving him.  During the service, he kept saying it was hot having a 460 lbs boy serving him and giving him a blowjob!  it was a good night :D

We went home and went to bed.

Friday, woke up and did some errands. Iain arrived from Oregon, and a little later Master Chuck arrived and we went to eat. we came back and got ready for bed.  What surprised me is that Master Chuck wanted to sleep with me on his bed. He has an air mattress and being a big guy..i was really afraid of breaking the bed. Needless to say the bed did not break that night!!! However, i did not sleep well.

Saturday, was the start of TLP, and i will continue on that on my next blog entry... :D

The “WHY” shackles

During my week with Sir, we did do some play as well as serving Master Chuck.  One of the things that plagues me is my mind tends to spin, and during those times, my head starts to think... “WHY?”  Why me?  Why do i need to do this, etc...  Unfortunately, this affects not only my service to Sir, but it also affects my experience of service and the utter joy that play can bring.

So, during a play session, i just let go..... i say my thoughts of “WHY” as shackles and released them.   OMG!  i turned into hyper sensation bottom.... every experience i got was pure pleasure.  

This is just another example where i just need to relax and focus on the reason i am here in the moment rather then worry what will happen next.... otherwise i will miss out in an experiences i will never forget!

Daddy!

During my trip up to Master Chuck’s, i spent a lot of time in service.  Towards the end the need for affection was really strong. However, in my head, i thought i shouldn’t tell Sir this because it wasn’t my place to say this.  

Fortunately, Sir and i talked for a bit, and i asked for a hug.  When i did i broke down.  He asked me why i broke down.  i explained that my dad and i never had a great relationship, and there was no physical affection by him.... yet when i get affection by Sir, it meant that a Masculine figure in my life that is guiding me like a Father is being affectionate.

As i was talking to him, Sir was rubbing and grabbing the back of my neck.  The physical aspect of this is that like a dog.  The mother Dog would nibble the back of the pup’s neck to move them and to comfort them.

Since then, my view of my mentor (Master Chuck) is that not only as a Mentor but also as a Father Figure.  In the past year that i have been involved with Sir, i felt i have grown as a man.  Like a boy turning into a man should be.

This was also a great experience to learn that Dominant Men can have several roles.... Master, Daddy, Sir, Dog Trainer, Pig Slopper, etc.......  and i love that fact that in a Dom.

TLP Change in schedule

Just letting everyone know, my workshop was moved from Saterday to Sunday Aug 14th.

links to TLP and the workshops can be found here:


http://bootblackmatt.blogspot.com/2011/07/workshop-announcement.html

Soul searching...

   At the end of July, i had the privilege of being in Service to  Master Chuck (my mentor) for a week.  The main reason was to prepare His leathers for ILS/b competition, but also to spend time with him. 

  Sir warned me that He was going to be tough on me, and that is true... however in the week of service i found out something i didn’t consciously know about myself.

We had a chance to really talk during an 8hr drive, and had a lot of good topics to talk about, and one of the topics was His turn on when a boy is with Him when He enters the hotel room if the boy was left in the room.  In my head, i took note of it, but did not think it would come up at all. 

The next day, Master Chuck left the hotel for the day, wile i worked on His leathers.

 When i was done, i called him, and Sir said that he will be there soon, and i was to great him properly.

HOLY FUCK.... i was in a conundrum.  You see, i have a protocol in greeting Sir whenever i see him.  Yet, the proper hotel greeting crept in my mind.  For 30 min, i was in my head battling what i should do.  So when the time came, i made the decision.... i would do the proper hotel greeting.  i took a shower, got items ready and was properly dressed... (as in naked, except my boots).  Sir  surprised me, and as i saw him for a brief second, my mind went into deep submission.    When i saw Sir, in his cloths (which was VERY masculine) a little known fantasy (and fear)  of mine came out....  Humiliation, and i was Sir’s bitch houseboy.  And Sir used me as such.

In my life, i have been abused physically, verbally, and emotionally.  Humiliation as play i would never had though i would get into it due to my history.  But what this scene told me is that with the right Dom, humiliation is not only fun but also very powerful.  During this scene and a few sessions on the way back to Master Chucks home,  humiliation was very powerful to me in that i was able to be in deep submission and still feel cared for and the humiliation was not out to prove ones power over the other, but rather that i gave Sir that power to use over me. In this instance, Humiliation = Love.

i am still processing what has happened, and will be writing about it as i find the words for it.  Three things stand out that i will be talking about.  The WHY “shackles”.  What a Daddy means to me.  And Lastly, unexpected affections.

boy matt

Workshop Announcement....

i will be giving a workshop at Toronto Leather Pride in two weeks. i will be doing Bootblacking and Spirituality on Saturday August 13^th from 3:15 – 4:45.... and during the workshop you will be able to see Master Chuck, my mentor, as well.  Come on out to Leather Pride.

http://torontoleatherpride.ca/

educational series

http://TorontoLeatherPride.ca/weekend-package-and-tickets/education-series-pass/

My Leather Bootblacking History.....

My Leather Bootblacking History.....

For those in the Leather Lifestyle, do you reflect on the journey you took to get to where you are today?  i want to take this opportunity to reflect on those who helped me on my Bootblack History.

The first person i want to mention is slave Eric.  slave Eric is in Master Chuck’ leather family, the same one i am in.  The family was together at the Rochester Rams run a few years back, and we all learned from him how to polish boots.  This was the first time i have ever polished boots and learned any of the techniques.

The next person i want to thank is black.  i consider him the Godfather of bootblacking. He also has taught a lot of Torontonian Bootblacks their craft.  black also was one of the judges in one of my competitions.  When he was in my chair, i had him purring :D

The next person is boy joe.  A fellow bootblack in Toronto, he was also a judge in one of my competitions.  He was ecstatic that i found a trick a judge uses to see if the bootblack is paying attention!!!

Another bootblack from Toronto is boy eli.  Boy eli lead the second workshop i went to, and helped developed my craft further.

Boy Alex....what can i say, He won the first contest i was in, and ever since i met boy alex, i always have a great time catching up and finding out more about the bootblacks in Toronto so i can be caught up!

Another Toronto Bootblack is slave cub.  i also learned bootblacking from him, but in addition he suggested i public bootblack and to run for any bootblacking competitions.  Later that year, i did!!

BooBoo is an IMBB winner, and was a guest Bootblack at the first workshop i went to in Toronto.  He was the one that taught me about grease boots and how they are different from polish boots.  Ever since then, i love to grease grease boots!!!! 

Master Jack ( or as i known him back then Black Jack) was a competitor at my 1^st IML.  He got 2^nd runner up and only beet me by 1 vote!!  Since then we been talking and he encouraged me to run for the NABB contest for the second time.  i am glad i did.

Elegant!  If black is the Godfather of Bootblacking, Elegant is the Godmother of Bootblacking.  Even though we have never met, i have asked her for some advice, and she gives it freely.  i highly respect her and her knowledge, and hope one day that we get to meet, and hope i learn more form her!

Gabe M.  For those who know Gabe, you know how much a flirt he is.  But deep down, he is a great man with a huge heart.  In my need at GLLA, i needed some finger cots, and he went to get some for me when i needed to be bootblacking.  i will never forget that, and apreciate him.  i just wished we could spend more time with each other.

Bootdog.... IMBB winner the 1^st year i competed at IML.  Since i met him, i want to live up to his standard of competition and his warmth and friendship as a friend.  i have appreciated his friendship we have.  The following year,  i wanted to be like bootdog at IML, and did my best to be a Big Brother to the other contestants, especially those who were there for the first time. i hope our friendship continues.

Ben... Ben from Chicago contacted me to see if i could bootblack for the WindyCity Boys Troupe on their bar night.  i was humbled by their invitation, and appreciated the opportunity to bootblack.

Jeff and Eddie. A couple in Columbus who opened up their home for me when i bootblacking in Columbus.  They also were gracious to give me my first business cards for my bootblacking when i competed at IML.

Chris, also from Columbus at the time, also opened up his home for me when i was in Columbus.

Sir Merrill.  He helped me realize who i am as a bootblack and why i compete.

Mr. Leather Toronto education series, Detroit Area Rough and Kinkfest, LIFE Detroit, and KNOCK.  These education based institutions allowed me to teach at there venues. Teaching allows me to grow as a bootblack, and it challenges me to make sure i know my stuff.

There are a few i need to spend more time on and without them, i would not be where i am today as a bootblack.

The first is Frank.  He was the owner of WOOFS and sponsored me at my first IML.  When i was first asked to bootblack at WOOFS, i was privileged to black his boots.  It was then that people asked me if i was going to compete at IML.  Right there he said he would sponsor me!!! i am so grateful for his support...also quite a hot man!!!!!!

The next is Lady Justice and the Justice League.  When i was in Columbus bootblacking, i was introduced to Lady Justice.  Since then, i have been asked to bootblack for them as much as i could until i was unable to travel.  i am grateful for there support of my bootblacking and their friendship.  i was privileged to get from Lady Justice my second piece of Earned Leather, a leather vest that i still ware today.  Later on, i found out it was the first piece that Lady Justice ever gave, and i am honored to be the recipient of the Leather Vest.

Daddy Dawg and David Hawks.  David Hawks is a past IMBB winner and was running the IMBB the two years i was competing.  Daddy Dawg was the Den Daddy and Daddy to David.  They both cared deeply about their bootblacks and made sure they were ok when competing.  With me, they went well beyond this, and talked to me when i felt i wasn’t getting any votes.  They talked to me about confidence and the fact that even though i did not look the ‘typical’ bootblack, who there were people there that appreciated fine work.  They were also there for me and concerned at the last IML i competed when there was a possible TIA attack.  i cannot say how much i care about the two of them and how much they mean to me.  Unfortunately David’s last year running IMBB was this year and i was unable to make it. i hope i see the two of them again, i need to give them a hug.

Marc, aka Bootglove.  Marc was a Leather Uncle to me in every sense of the word.  When i was no longer collared and competed at IML, he was my main source of support.  Not only those, as an Uncle, he put me up at a motel right before IML so that i wasn’t rushed, and provided me with bottled water and Izzy pop!!!!!!  i will NEVER forget him.  Unfortunately, Marc passed away from kidney failure, and i miss him severely.  If i compete at IML again, it will be hard not to see him there

BullmanX!!  Sir Paul allowed me to do some of his boots to see my skill and what i learned.  i was so green, i wasn’t sure i was good enough.  Sir Paul was the first boots i worked on that was not in my Leather Family.  Once i finished the boots, he was impressed. He suggested that i should public bootblack and see if i could black at the Eagle here in Detroit.  Sir Paul took some photos of me bootblacking, i used  a pic for my business cards.  He has been a long time friend and Mentor and values his opinion.  Unfortunately for me, he moved to DC area, and i miss him greatly.

Next are Sir Scott and Sir Iain.  My former Sirs.  They helped foster and nurture my bootblacking skills.  They also provided me my first bootblacking kit which parts of which i still use today.  They allowed me to experiment with their boots when i needed to learn new skills, or trying new techniques.  Sir Iain had gifted me the pair of Doc Martians boots that i worked on extensively.  These boots have a long line of history to them and helped inspire my Bootblacking and Spirituality workshop.

Master Chuck.  Sir has been quite patient with me is a big understatement!!! However, without him, i would not have continued with bootblacking.  i have the distinct privilege of having Sir as my Demo Top when doing my Bootblacking and Spirituality course.  This included the second time i taught the class, i was privilege to black him main pair of Boots. These are the pair of boots that was gifted to him and was worn at every collaring, decollating, family function there is.  i am privilege to be one of two people who are allowed to black those boots, and when i do, i drop into sub space.  i hope to be able to black Sir’s boots for a long time .... at least until there is a Dom to collar me who needs me for their boots!!!

There have been many people who  also contributed to my leather Bootblacking journey, and have left their mark on me. i appreciate everyone who came into my life.  Please take time to thank those who contributed to your Life, Leather life, and to those who helped make you who you are today!!!

i Miss...

bootblacking!!!! it has been a long time since i have done it publicly.   i kind of need to be in that headspace right now.

Time to Switch...

Time to Switch...

Today, a chaser friend of mine came over, and for the first time in a long time, it was more D/s and BDSM then friendship.  We did a lot of things including spanking, edging, cbt, fucking, the usual EG.  He left happy.   There are some pics and vids, maybe be allowed to post them.... what do you think?

Blast from the Past!

Blast from the Past!

 Very late Saturday (i mean VERY LATE) i ended up talking to someone whom i have talked to about 10 years ago.  We wanted to play with each other badly, but i was so green in D/s and BDSM, i stalled a lot and felt bad.  Well, we reconnected and hopefully a visit will happen sometime within the next couple of months!!!

Nothing Lasts Forever.... Including Smelly Socks!!!!

Nothing Lasts Forever.... Including Smelly Socks!!!!

i’ve been in a funk the last couple of weeks.  Work has been very stressful, which is causing me to stress eat and gain weight again.  Dealing with death of a friend and also a classmate from high school.  Also dealing with a death of a Speedo :-(  .

So a lot has been on my mind, and these thoughts stay in my head for a long time.  One of the things that does help me is Sir’s used socks!

The last couple of times i have seen Sir, he has given me socks that he has worn for several days to work, and the smell acts like poppers to me.  It calms me down and allows me to release some of the ‘bad’ energy that i have bottled up for a short time. 

Smelling Sir's Socks

These last pair, Sir had worn for a week and was really smelly, and you know what?  FUCK THEY SMELL GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!

i was talking to Sir tonight, and realized the socks started to loose there smell because i was using them a lot (well ok, i also use them to jack off to as well, but that’s another story)

During the talk, Sir reminded me that nothing lasts forever and things do end.  i know this and to some point already know this.  i was thinking of how i wanted to be buried or even cremated.....and where these ashes may be scattered.

There is another part of me that also thinks that when something is done, it is done for good.  Life is a good example of this.  My grandma passed away this past Dec, a friend of mine passed away last year, and an acquaintance i known and admired passed away this past month.... but it goes beyond life. i am also afraid.....and terrified that i will never be collared again. 

Being collared means a lot to me, and he fear of never being collared again is always on my mind.  i know of this one Dom who has only been collared once, and is looking to find a Dom again...but having difficulty finding one.  i feel and fear that will happen to me....that either no one will want me, or Doms will see me as “used” goods.

i know if i am to be a better boy...or possibly a slave, i need to work on myself.  Mind and body are at the top of the lists! 

sigh

Nothing lasts forever, i know that.....but then again, i am looking forward to getting a fresh pair of used socks [and hopefully soon!]!!!

First Question...

First Question...

Hey everyone!  Well i got my first question...and it is a doozy!

Twinkies

or

Speedo?

Ok, this needs a bit of explaining.  Speedos already have been talked about in an earlier posting which you can go here. .

http://bootblackmatt.blogspot.com/2011/04/my-first-porn-and-fetish.html

However, Twinkies need a bit of explaining.

Here is Michigan, there is an HIV educator that also has a food fetish.  I got to meet him at the Detroit Eagle one night, and despite talking on Recon, we didn’t recognize each other.  That night, he was partaking his fetish of feeding people, and fed me some Zingers! WOOOF

When i was collared to Sir I, i had made him a birthday cake, and or some reason i cannot remember, he took a piece of cake, chewed it and then fed it to me.  It was not disgusting, in fact it was quite erotic because we were sharing an instant moment as Sir and boy with Sir I Dominating me threw food. 

After being decollared and some separation, i forgot about these things.

In Feb 2008, there was Leather Education weekend called DARK (Detroit Area Rough and Kinkfest) was both the educator and myself were teaching at.  The educator on Fri night fed me a Twinkie.  WOOOF!  The next day, my former Sirs came with me, and the educator had to leave, but in the moment, gave a box of Twinkies to me as a thank you.  Sir I took one of those Twinkies, took half into his mouth, came up to me, and fed the other half to me and started to kiss!  SNORT!!!!!

So that started the whole Twinkie thing......but doesn’t end there....

There was a weekend in Sudbury where Master C and his Leather Family got together to work on a renovating a house.  As a joke, i tried to find Twinkies at the market in Canada, but they are very hard to find.  Rather, they have snack cakes called Jos Louis.  So i got them.  When we got back, Iain and i reenacted what we did at DARK. Master C got an idea.... he opened up his pants, and stuck a Jos Louise on his cock, and asked me to clean him up, and not to get any on his pants.  Well i failed miserable (but had a great time) because it made a bigger mess then expected :P

[readjusting myself now]

Ok, now to the question at hand...

Speedos or Twinkies?

mmm....

thinking...

Damn it... i am selfish.....

I WANT A TWINKIE INSIDE OF A SPEEDO WITH A GUY IN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok..i better get going, i am hungry now

Ask me anything...anytime

Ask me anything...anytime

Trying something new.... on the right hand side, you can see a space where you can ask me a question.  Feel free to ask me anything...anytime :D

Need to back up...

Need to back up...


Hey all! hope everyone is doing well. It is late April and they are STILL talking about getting snow over night....ugh!!!


Well i need to catch up a bit, a few weekends ago..... there was an event here in Detroit called Leather United. At this event, Leatherfolk got together and talked and had a good time in a non-bar setting. It was great to see people that i know there, and that for the first time, i talked for the majority of it. (for those of you who do not know me well, i am VERY shy and is difficult to talk to people) my former Sir was down for other reasons, and we went to the event together (and yes i talked MORE then he did :p )

Downstairs was a dungeon that was very well equipped including 3 fully stocked first – aid kits. There was also a leaning bed, where the sub can stand on the ledge and lean in toward the bed, and the Dom can do what he wants. For me this is a great device because it allows me to really let go when being whipped or flogged and not worry about falling down and injuring myself (because even if i am cuffed up, i am a very big person and still can hurt myself)

So all in all i had a great time, and hope i can help out the next time it happens!!!

                                                                      Iain and myself

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My First Porn.... and Fetish

My First Porn.... and Fetish

i am having fun writing on this blog, and its funny that i remember some things in the past that explains who i am today!  One of the things many people do not know about me is that i have a major Speedo Fetish.  Ok, ok many people know about this (because i generally ask if they have a Speedo with in 5 min of a conversation :-D )

How it started, i believe was when i was in 1^st grade.  i went to a circus as part of a school class trip, and during the show, there was this Tarzan type character. He even wore a loincloth!  i just remembered being really excited seeing him (as in hyper) and when we talked as a class, i was gushing over him.   Never thought about it until later.

When i was in Jr. High, there was a fad going on and that was guys warring spandex shorts.  i remember seeing guys packages and seeing there cock and balls giggling and it looked like bowl full of Jell-O when it giggles :P  .  At the same time, i was starting to watch WWF wrestling. OMFG!!!!! seeing all those muscle guys in tight shorts being all grabby with each other, i was really turned on, and jacked off to it a lot!  The two that i had the biggest crush on was Hulk Hogan (with the yellow shorts and muscle posing) and Ravishing Rick Rude (who exudes sex and had a tight physique).  

When i got older, i was hanging out with someone, and it hit me that this person may look good in a Speedo, so i bought one for him and fuck was he hot in it!!!  Unfortunately, we did continue our friendship and lost track of him....but still had the Speedo.

When my former Sir came to visit, i asked him to try the Speedo on, i thought it would look hot on him.  When he put it on, fireworks sparked!  As the relationship progressed, i got him different colors of Speedos because i though he would look good in them.  He wore them at certain times to really get me going, and i appreciated it!

i even got Master C a very special Speedo for Christmas recently.  and he looked HOT in them!!!  The funny thing is, he and Iain went to a Speedo shop (without my knowledge) and both got a square cut Speedo suite.  HOLY FUCKING COW, SNORT< FUCK  GROAN!!!!....[sorry.... just need to readjust]  Those suits looked very hot on them.

So from Tarzan....to WWF....to Speedos, there is a direct line that shows where my fetish came from.  This could also be said of my muscle worship fetish, but there is more to it then just a simple line like the Speedo.  

Now, i have a fetish for spandex clothing that includes Speedos, Singlets, and UnderArmour type clothing.

Oh..... just so that you know, i flag spandex right ;-)

Intimacy of the BJ

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Books

Books

Usually experiencing something first hand is always the best way to learn something wither be a new technique, new philosophy, or a different way of getting someone off!  However, there are times when reading about them is a good way of introducing someone to these things so that the newbie has some starting points to start out with.

Leather is no different, and actually kind of better then the experience it self.  What i want to introduce are some great beginning books for those just starting in leather and their leather journey.

There are three books that i recommend, and i recommend them for both Dom/sub Top/bottom even though they may be indicative to the bottom/sub.

The first book i recommend is The New Bottoming Book by Janet Hardy and Dossie Easton (ISBN-1890159352)  Here is the 1^st book in which even the Dom/Top would need to read even though it is geared for the other.  In this book, it teaches what being a bottom means and it also teaches someone new in fetish or Leather techniques and red flags in obtaining people to play with.  They emphasis recommendations of ones abilities as well as red flags to watch out for.   As a Dom or Top it teaches you to obtain references but also understand the fears that a someone new would have, and ways to address them.

The next one i would recommend is Carried Away: AN S/M Romance by David Stein.  (ISBN-1881943178)This one is more geared for those wanting to live a Leather Life and D/s.  It is in this book, it reflects what living in a real D/s relationship is like rather then the fantasy of porn.  This was the first book that was recommended to me after a scene that did not go well....but in hindsight, it actually was a good thing. 

The last one i recommend is Becoming a Slave by Jack Rinella (ISBN-0940267209).  This boo is great because it describes each D/s relationship is unique and not a ‘cookie cutter’ relationship.  It also goes into detail what being in a Master/slave relationship is like and the general tenants it gives as well as its rewards.   A Sir/boy or even Daddy/boy could read this as well and fit it into their lives. 

These are a lot of books on BDSM, Kink, Leather, and D/s out there, but i believe these are the main three that everyone should read to understand themselves and their roles.  i hope you get a chance to enjoy and learn from them!

Communication

Communication

Hey everyone, lately i have been very nostalgic and been talking about really great times i have had being collared as well as some recent events.  Tonight i want to talk about communication. 

One of the earliest things i had to learn was that the main thing in any D/s relationship is communicate, communicate, communicate!!!!  (Yes, it was ALWAYS told in threes..... but it also showed the importance of it).  This was the most prevalent when i was talking to my first Sir.

Sir invited me to a Leather Run, the first i ever been to.  i was very excited and looking forward to it.  Then a  few weeks later, Sir told me that He was bringing another boy.......  i was very pissed off..... so i hung up the phone on him.

GASP

yeah, i can hear you gasping and expecting the worse.... but let me explain a few things.  This relationship was my second relationship i ever had....also, i was SO new to leather (as in only months) that i was still learning what is appropriate in a Leather Relationship.  Lastly,  it pushed a major button of abandonment in me.

i calmed down a bit, and then started to shake..... i thought he was mad at me, but at the same time, i wanted to test Sir.... is He really interested in me....will He follow through?

Well.... i actually called him about 26 min later, and Sir and i had a good discussion.  Also was ordered to NEVER......EVER..... to hang up on Him again. 

As time went on in the relationship, i did get better in communication.

One thing i  am a proponent of is realization of different forms of communications.  i want you to think of different ways of communication.  Can you think of any?  How about forms of non-verbal communication?

TOUCH

Touch is one of my biggest forms of  accepting communication.  The touch of a Master’s hand on your face............. the kiss given freely by a Master.......... the grip on your hair (on head or beard) for an inspection or even a blowjob.   When you read the previous sentence, did you have any feelings or emotions as you read them?  i do, and it communicates to me...

Touch..... Compassion, affection, love

Kiss.... Eroticism,  affection,   ownership

Grab.... ownership,  submission,  being wanted

EYES

Ok, i am a fan of Tyra Banks, Americas Next Top Model.  One of the things she teaches the models is Smizing.....smiling with your eyes.  In the Leather world, what does your eyes to do when you see something erotic?  When you’re compassionate?  When you’re in complete submission/ Dominance?  Master C is one of the best examples i have seen when it comes to this.  i remember (that is when i look) when Sir shows Compassion, Happiness, and Mischievous.  i know he has an erotic look to his eyes, the thing is i have never seen it with me because either i am sucking on his cock, or my back is to him when he whipped me!!!! :D

In a relationship i was in, despite all the verbal communication we had, the one thing that was screaming in my head was “PLEASE JUST TOUCH ME!”  This was not just for play, but rather the reassurance a touch can give and the affection i needed. Ever since then, i have been a big proponent of multiple forms of communication especially non-verbal. The relationship i have with Master C, i am grateful to have this multi form communication style..... even if it is a Mentorship/Protectionship and not a collared one.

SO......what do you  think?  What other forms of communication do you use? 

Spirituality, Eroticism, and Protectionism

Spirituality, Eroticism, and Protectionism

It’s interesting things i find out about myself as i get older, and how things change.  One thing i find myself changing is the type of person i want to be with.  It started out likening the clones that i saw in porn in the early 90’s.  You know what i mean, they all tend to look alike.  It wasn’t until one night at a gay bowling night, someone suggested i look at bears, and to see what i though of them.  When i did, i was more attracted to them then the ones i saw on porn. Part of that was more likely because they were more Daddy to me.  Daddy in this case was a masculine nurturer then a sexual role.

As time went on, i was exploring more about the gay life and its sub cultures. And i came across Honcho the magazine.  This magazine is based on Kink and BDSM, and what really turned my crank were pics of hot hairy guys in leather (or naked) or well-built muscle guys.  The fiction as well as artwork by Tom of Finland as well as MATT, completely sent me over the edge .  i was fascinated and scared.

i went threw a period of having a partner and in that time, i realized i needed BDSM and Service in my life. So i went  threw looking for something else.  When i did, i found my first Sir, Sir Scott.  DAMN, i had a good time, and what made it better for me was that he was interested in wanting to see me again!!!!!  The next time i saw him, i was introduced to his partner, who later became my second Sir, Sir Iain.

The two of Them affected me in two different ways.  Sir Scott was the nurturing Dom that i needed, but also put me threw my paces when it came to flogging and whipping. And His Kiss was that of aggressive Dom that was protective.....and at that time, i felt it in my core.  Sir Iain on the other hand was different in that his kiss was pure eroticism....that also went into my core.

As time went on, it became clear that we needed to separate.....well it wasn’t clear, but it was needed.

i was hurting badly, and felt an emptiness and void in my life, and it looked like no one was able to fill that need.  When i did find someone that had the potential, it never came close to the experience that i had before......that feeling of being shaken to the core by a kiss.  It wasn’t until Mr. Leather Toronto 2008 when things got on track again.

i was chosen to give a workshop on Bootblacking and Spirituality.  When i gave it, i was incredibly nervous and wasn’t sure how things were going to go.  As i gave the workshop, i told the truth and gave my experiences of what it is like to be a spiritual bootblack.  When i was done, i looked up.....i saw everyone with tears in there eyes.  In the audience, Master C was in it, and he came up to me and asked me “Where is boy matt, and what did you do with him?”  .....  As we talked more, he said that my real “self” was being shown off rather then the shell that most people saw me in everyday life.

From that Day, Master C started to work with me to become a better person and took on the role of Mentor and Protector.  Since then we have seen each other in family events several time. And last October, i was able to have a 1-1 weekend with Master C.

Since that weekend, when Sir gently kisses me on the lips, it’s as if i was hit by lightning and being calmed down at the same time..... i being shaken to the core HARD!  It is really hard to describe the feeling, except that in that moment, everything is fine in the world.

As i think about what has happened to me, i realized what type of person best suits me as either a partner, a Dom, or both.  This person needs to understand Spirituality in Leather. That is what really turns my crank.  The person also needs to understand Eroticism....kissing a certain way, the way one moves or wares to turn the other person on (this includes a Speedo for me :p ) The last part is Protectionism.  The person needs to understand that leather is also about protection of property....of each other. 

i think those three things (Spirituality, Eroticism, Protectionism) represent  in physical form, what a collar means to me. i have not been collard in 3 years, and i miss having one....but i will not accept a collar just because of that void.

i am looking forward to exploring more about my needs and wants when it comes to D/s and BDSM. 

boy matt

ps: feel free to comment, i welcome any and all comments