Nothing Lasts Forever.... Including Smelly Socks!!!!

Nothing Lasts Forever.... Including Smelly Socks!!!!

i’ve been in a funk the last couple of weeks.  Work has been very stressful, which is causing me to stress eat and gain weight again.  Dealing with death of a friend and also a classmate from high school.  Also dealing with a death of a Speedo :-(  .

So a lot has been on my mind, and these thoughts stay in my head for a long time.  One of the things that does help me is Sir’s used socks!

The last couple of times i have seen Sir, he has given me socks that he has worn for several days to work, and the smell acts like poppers to me.  It calms me down and allows me to release some of the ‘bad’ energy that i have bottled up for a short time. 

Smelling Sir's Socks

These last pair, Sir had worn for a week and was really smelly, and you know what?  FUCK THEY SMELL GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!

i was talking to Sir tonight, and realized the socks started to loose there smell because i was using them a lot (well ok, i also use them to jack off to as well, but that’s another story)

During the talk, Sir reminded me that nothing lasts forever and things do end.  i know this and to some point already know this.  i was thinking of how i wanted to be buried or even cremated.....and where these ashes may be scattered.

There is another part of me that also thinks that when something is done, it is done for good.  Life is a good example of this.  My grandma passed away this past Dec, a friend of mine passed away last year, and an acquaintance i known and admired passed away this past month.... but it goes beyond life. i am also afraid.....and terrified that i will never be collared again. 

Being collared means a lot to me, and he fear of never being collared again is always on my mind.  i know of this one Dom who has only been collared once, and is looking to find a Dom again...but having difficulty finding one.  i feel and fear that will happen to me....that either no one will want me, or Doms will see me as “used” goods.

i know if i am to be a better boy...or possibly a slave, i need to work on myself.  Mind and body are at the top of the lists! 

sigh

Nothing lasts forever, i know that.....but then again, i am looking forward to getting a fresh pair of used socks [and hopefully soon!]!!!

First Question...

First Question...

Hey everyone!  Well i got my first question...and it is a doozy!

Twinkies

or

Speedo?

Ok, this needs a bit of explaining.  Speedos already have been talked about in an earlier posting which you can go here. .

http://bootblackmatt.blogspot.com/2011/04/my-first-porn-and-fetish.html

However, Twinkies need a bit of explaining.

Here is Michigan, there is an HIV educator that also has a food fetish.  I got to meet him at the Detroit Eagle one night, and despite talking on Recon, we didn’t recognize each other.  That night, he was partaking his fetish of feeding people, and fed me some Zingers! WOOOF

When i was collared to Sir I, i had made him a birthday cake, and or some reason i cannot remember, he took a piece of cake, chewed it and then fed it to me.  It was not disgusting, in fact it was quite erotic because we were sharing an instant moment as Sir and boy with Sir I Dominating me threw food. 

After being decollared and some separation, i forgot about these things.

In Feb 2008, there was Leather Education weekend called DARK (Detroit Area Rough and Kinkfest) was both the educator and myself were teaching at.  The educator on Fri night fed me a Twinkie.  WOOOF!  The next day, my former Sirs came with me, and the educator had to leave, but in the moment, gave a box of Twinkies to me as a thank you.  Sir I took one of those Twinkies, took half into his mouth, came up to me, and fed the other half to me and started to kiss!  SNORT!!!!!

So that started the whole Twinkie thing......but doesn’t end there....

There was a weekend in Sudbury where Master C and his Leather Family got together to work on a renovating a house.  As a joke, i tried to find Twinkies at the market in Canada, but they are very hard to find.  Rather, they have snack cakes called Jos Louis.  So i got them.  When we got back, Iain and i reenacted what we did at DARK. Master C got an idea.... he opened up his pants, and stuck a Jos Louise on his cock, and asked me to clean him up, and not to get any on his pants.  Well i failed miserable (but had a great time) because it made a bigger mess then expected :P

[readjusting myself now]

Ok, now to the question at hand...

Speedos or Twinkies?

mmm....

thinking...

Damn it... i am selfish.....

I WANT A TWINKIE INSIDE OF A SPEEDO WITH A GUY IN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ok..i better get going, i am hungry now

Ask me anything...anytime

Ask me anything...anytime

Trying something new.... on the right hand side, you can see a space where you can ask me a question.  Feel free to ask me anything...anytime :D

Need to back up...

Need to back up...


Hey all! hope everyone is doing well. It is late April and they are STILL talking about getting snow over night....ugh!!!


Well i need to catch up a bit, a few weekends ago..... there was an event here in Detroit called Leather United. At this event, Leatherfolk got together and talked and had a good time in a non-bar setting. It was great to see people that i know there, and that for the first time, i talked for the majority of it. (for those of you who do not know me well, i am VERY shy and is difficult to talk to people) my former Sir was down for other reasons, and we went to the event together (and yes i talked MORE then he did :p )

Downstairs was a dungeon that was very well equipped including 3 fully stocked first – aid kits. There was also a leaning bed, where the sub can stand on the ledge and lean in toward the bed, and the Dom can do what he wants. For me this is a great device because it allows me to really let go when being whipped or flogged and not worry about falling down and injuring myself (because even if i am cuffed up, i am a very big person and still can hurt myself)

So all in all i had a great time, and hope i can help out the next time it happens!!!

                                                                      Iain and myself

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My First Porn.... and Fetish

My First Porn.... and Fetish

i am having fun writing on this blog, and its funny that i remember some things in the past that explains who i am today!  One of the things many people do not know about me is that i have a major Speedo Fetish.  Ok, ok many people know about this (because i generally ask if they have a Speedo with in 5 min of a conversation :-D )

How it started, i believe was when i was in 1^st grade.  i went to a circus as part of a school class trip, and during the show, there was this Tarzan type character. He even wore a loincloth!  i just remembered being really excited seeing him (as in hyper) and when we talked as a class, i was gushing over him.   Never thought about it until later.

When i was in Jr. High, there was a fad going on and that was guys warring spandex shorts.  i remember seeing guys packages and seeing there cock and balls giggling and it looked like bowl full of Jell-O when it giggles :P  .  At the same time, i was starting to watch WWF wrestling. OMFG!!!!! seeing all those muscle guys in tight shorts being all grabby with each other, i was really turned on, and jacked off to it a lot!  The two that i had the biggest crush on was Hulk Hogan (with the yellow shorts and muscle posing) and Ravishing Rick Rude (who exudes sex and had a tight physique).  

When i got older, i was hanging out with someone, and it hit me that this person may look good in a Speedo, so i bought one for him and fuck was he hot in it!!!  Unfortunately, we did continue our friendship and lost track of him....but still had the Speedo.

When my former Sir came to visit, i asked him to try the Speedo on, i thought it would look hot on him.  When he put it on, fireworks sparked!  As the relationship progressed, i got him different colors of Speedos because i though he would look good in them.  He wore them at certain times to really get me going, and i appreciated it!

i even got Master C a very special Speedo for Christmas recently.  and he looked HOT in them!!!  The funny thing is, he and Iain went to a Speedo shop (without my knowledge) and both got a square cut Speedo suite.  HOLY FUCKING COW, SNORT< FUCK  GROAN!!!!....[sorry.... just need to readjust]  Those suits looked very hot on them.

So from Tarzan....to WWF....to Speedos, there is a direct line that shows where my fetish came from.  This could also be said of my muscle worship fetish, but there is more to it then just a simple line like the Speedo.  

Now, i have a fetish for spandex clothing that includes Speedos, Singlets, and UnderArmour type clothing.

Oh..... just so that you know, i flag spandex right ;-)

Intimacy of the BJ

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